Life...

It feels like years since I've made a post.

Life has been crazy the past few weeks, but I will be sure to update this week.

Pinky promises


xo Alexandra

about the author. (v 1.0)

So after I ate dinner tonight I dyed my hair (black as always.) I had major root growth and it was no bueno. As I was coloring my hair I decided to do a little about the author, something to sort of introduce myself to the blogging world (and maybe even a monthly post?) So here we go..

#1: I was born in New York.
I was born in Baldwin and was raised in Bellmore. Both are on Long Island. When I was in fifth grade I moved to Marlboro, New Jersey. Now, I reside in Rio Rancho, New Mexico. I never would have imagined that.

#2: I can never make up my mind.
When I was a little girl I wanted to be a marine biologist. I also wanted to be a waitress so I could write on a pad all day. Ha! When I was about 11 or 12 I decided I wanted to be a writer. This is something that has always stuck with me, but I've kind of put it on the back burner. As I got older I decided I wanted to be a make-up artist, which is something I'd still like to do part-time. I even went to school to become a licensed make up artist, I just never felt that I was good enough to do it professionally. Now, I really want to be a teacher. When I was in college, I was an English major and that's what I'm going to be going back to school for. I am also on the hunt for a job at a day care. *Fingers crossed.*

#3: I am a total bargain shopper.
I am the kind of girl who can't say no to a good deal, even if it's something that I don't really need, oops. I love going thrifting, going to garage sales, and finding things on the cheap. It's a total accomplishment for me when I score something really good. I once found an authentic hermes scarf at a thrift store for like $5.00, it was a toal bargain score.

#4: I get emotionally attached to television shows.
When I am really into a television show I become addicted, it's weird, I know. Like on The Office when Jim and Pam got married, I cried like it was my own wedding. When Dawson's Creeek was taken off the air (I know, I know, don't judge me), I was a total wreck.

Ha! I feel like an idiot. That's all for this evening.

Good-night,

XO Alexandra

my favorite place on earth.

Ever since I was a little girl there has always been a place that made me feel like home. The place that made me feel so comfortable and at ease, that ladies and gents was the library.


(I would love for this to be in my home. Isn't it gorg?)

I've always been enamored by the public library. I could/still do spend hours on end there reading back covers, about the authors, and blurbs about the book. I love everything about books. The smell, the texture, the feeling I get when I'm about to start on a new journey. I just love everything about them. Books have always been my escape, but in a really positive way. I love getting into a good book and drifting into the story I'm reading, to me, there is no better feeling, and the library is the place to get my fix.

I spent about an hour at the library this evening which I hadn't done in a while, it was delightful. I picked up some good reads that I'm going to dive into tonight. I also picked up a cure little how-to knitting book. I am so excited! Also, I picked up Veronica Mars season 2 on DVD. I used to love this show. I get emotionally attached to television shows, and this was definitely one that I was sad to see go.

That's it for my eventful night. I'm going to watch television and read a book.

Good-night.

XO Alexandra

things i'm excited about.

Hi hi!

This evening I'm going to share a few things that I am stoked about/for


#1:
Valentine's Day!

It is one of my favorite days of the year! I know it's a total halmark holiday and all, but why not celebrate a little extra special every now and then? Also, this Valentine
s day is going to be my three year anniversary with James. It's a special one because it's going to be our last anniversary before we're married. I think we're actually going out on Saturday with Dave and Tess who are our valentine's day couple.

#2:
The new China Glaze collection. It's called 'Up and Away'

I love that most of these colors are creamy pastels which are absolute favorite. The color re-freshment is gorg. We're getting them at work on Tuesday and I am thrilled! I'm a huge nail polish collector, especially when it comes to China Glaze.

#3:
Going back to school!

I am so excited for the summer semester. It's been about a year and half since I went to school and ever since I dropped out I've felt completely stupid. I think I'd really like to become a high school English teacher. That's what I was going to school for in the first place, and I've always loved it. I had a high school English teacher that totally inspired me and I'd love to do the same some day.

That's all for now. I'm going to cuddle in bed with my dogs and read a good book until James gets home. Good night!

XO Alexandra

happy saturday!

After yesterday's sort of somber post I thought I'd make this one more cheerful, since that's kind of person I am.

My Friday night was good. James and I did our taxes and then we went to his brothers house for a little guitar hero. I am so amazed watching people play that game on expert. I can barely make it through on easy. After we left there, James thought it would be fun to go grocery shopping at midnight. It was not fun, but it was quiet so we didn't have to deal with the crowds at wal-mart. We came home, unpacked groceries, he watched Burn After Reading and I fell asleep. So nice.

Today I am at my parents house while he is working on his car. I brought some knitting and some books to keep myself entertained. I have also been discussing this with my mom:

It's the nook from barnes and noble. My dad got one for her for chanukah and she absolutely loves it. I was thinking about getting one with my tax return. I've already started to write a list of books that I want to read. I'm an avid reader and books get so pricey that the nook just seems like a good investment. Also, with my tax return I'm going to pay off that pesky credit card, pay my mom and dad everything I owe them, and take a couple of classes. I am so excited!

That's all for now. I'm going to enjoy the rest of this beautiful Saturday. The weather is so lovely!

xo Alexandra

identity crisis.

So I've been engaged for almost year and my wedding is in a little less then three months and somewhere in between these two dates, I've sort of had an identity crisis. I am not your traditional girl. I have piercings and tattoos and do things on my own terms so why would I want a traditional wedding? I never wanted the the diamond ring (my engagement ring has topaz because it's the color of my eyes),the white wedding dress (I originally wanted to wear either red or black), or any of that fancy shmancy wedding stuff. Don't get me wrong, I feel like I deserve all that stuff but I'm happiest when I'm true to myself. My parents have been beyond fantastic during this whole thing, paying for EVERYTHING and organizing little details that wouldn't have even been a thought in my mind but unlike me and my fiance, they are a little bit more conventional when it comes to the wedding stuff which was sort of a shock for me. I wanted them to want me to wear a red wedding dress and have a taco bar instead of a sit down dinner. I thought they would have been happy that someone loves me enough to want to spend the rest of their life with me that a ring without a diamond shouldn't be an issue because it's what I asked for (I also got a Nintendo wii as part of my engagement give from my future hubs. Cute, right?) This where the identity crisis comes in. I want to be true to myself because after all, I am the one getting married. It's James and I saying "I do" not my parents, but on the other hand, I am trying to please the beneficiaries of the wedding and in doing so I am compromising a lot of myself. I love to hear their opinions because they do have such good taste, but at the end of the night, shouldn't I be the one that's truly happy? I am only getting married the one time, right? Sure, there are things that they made me see the light on, like the wedding dress. I am absolutely in love with my dress, I want to wear it grocery shopping. I see that merit in the fact that they want me to have a white gold wedding ring because it say, "Hey, I'm married," but I think that James and I should have the final say in what they look like since we are going to be the ones wearing them. I love my parents greatly, and because of that fact I feel like I am giving up a lot of myself. I'm trying to be my quirky anti-bride self while playing to their conventional-wedding senses. I know that in the end all they want is for me to have a smash of a wedding, but at what cost? I am struggling enough being a bride all on my own. I see all these images on T.V. and in magazines on what the "ideal bride" should look like and honey, she ain't me. Sure, I've been getting in shape and losing weight, but that's for my own benefit, but everything else is hard for me to get on board with. Like all of a sudden I'm not going to get a spray tan or start dressing differently then I regularly do just because I'm getting married. When I went to the bridal fair with Tess I was just looking around at all these women and they all started to look the same. It's like when you get engaged you put away the phone nail polish and make up and bust out the pinks and the acrylics, and the french manis. That just isn't my style. Maybe it's because I'm 21 but still. With family pressure and media pressure it's hard knowing who I am in this whole situation. To me the most important thing is that I'm going to spend the rest of my life with someone I love and who loves me back. Shouldn't everyone just say that's enough, the two of you need to be happy at the end of the day? At least I have my fiance to rest my head on at the end of the day and vent to.

That's all.

xo Alexandra

wish list.

I have and will always be a fan of lists. This one that I have concocted is a wish list. Enjoy!


I wish I had a Blythe doll. I'd love to sew it dresses and do all sorts of cute things with it since I am out numbered by males in my house hold. Even though two of them are dogs.



I wish I had the patients to do cutesy nails. I'm a nail tech and I do not have the ability to do such cute things.


I wish I had a huge yarn collection. I'm starting to collect and make cute things like hair bows. I wish I knew more!

(all photos thanks to weheartit)

That's all. I have an early work day tomorrow. Good night.

xo Alexandra